Once again...

Wednesday, June 30th, 2010 08:47 am
auntbijou: (Angry Chibi Auntie!!)
Dear Writer,

Your story looks interesting, and I would really love to read it. However, when I clicked on the link, I found it to be locked. While I understand the need to f-lock stories on your LJ, I do not understand posting it on a comm which is locked to members only... and then linking it to your LJ, where you have locked it to your friends list only.

The comm is already locked. No one outside of the members of that community can read it, so... what's the point?

Maybe after I've calmed down, I'll leave a comment on your entry making this point that won't be bitchy and sarcastic...

... but don't count on it.



No love,

Auntie
auntbijou: (Dancing Snape)
Ahhhh... peace and quiet. The Husbandly One has been off for the last two weeks, so I wasn't kid-wrangling all on my lonesome during winter break. It was nice, really, and it always reminds me of the year he took off from work to go to school during the early years of our marriage. I miss it, but it's nice to have the house back to myself again. After all, more writing time!!

It was an interesting holiday, I must say. We drove into Houston for New Year's and ate dinner at my mother's. Well... tried to eat dinner, anyway. I waited until the next day to ask my mother who actually did the cooking. I mean, I know she made the cornbread, because she told me she did when she exclaimed in dismay over how flat and hard it came out. We decided that the baking powder she used was probably a little old, and she didn't use enough of it, anyway. In spite of that, it was still edible. In fact, the Impossible Son had two pieces and wanted more, but it was all gone!

And I know she made the black-eyed peas, because they weren't saturated in butter, or overwhelmed with garlic.

So, when I asked who actually did the cooking, beyond the black-eyed peas and the cornbread, she sighed and said, "Who do you think?"

And I said, "Mom, can I have Thanksgiving next year? I mean, seriously... the Flaky Sister cannot be allowed to cook for the family any more."

Let me put it this way. One of the dishes that the Flaky Sister served was some concoction of Paula Deen's that consisted of baby red potatoes cut into quarters, and green beans cooked in butter and, you guessed it, garlic. Did it taste like potatoes cooked in butter and garlic?

No.

What did it taste like, then?

I don't know how she achieved it, but somehow, my sister made baby red potatoes and green beans taste like turnip chunks stewed with turnip greens and spinach. I kid you not. How do you make potatoes and green beans taste so... metallic??? I even went to check the pot she cooked it in, sure that she must have used some bizarre pot she'd bought at some chi-chi frou-frou cook shop, but no... just the same old Farberware I use at home, no nicks or exposed places in the pot.

And her ham... GAH!! No, it wasn't as bad as the now infamous Salt Cured Ham-O-Doom of Thanksgiving 2008, but jays, how do you baste a ham... and have it come up dry????

*shakes head again*

Gave my mom her Christmas present on New Year's, and I really, really loved her expression when she opened it! I had crocheted her an afghan using Lion Brand Homespun yarn, which I love because it's thick, chunky, and soft. It was basically just a large granny square, but it came out beautifully, and Mom squeed and held it to her cheek, closing her eyes in bliss, and then she said, "I can't believe you made this for me!!"

Had to laugh ruefully over that one. Mom and I are alike in that we are continually making things for other people, and very rarely ourselves! When I was thinking of what to give her for Christmas, she had just been telling me how she had been working on an afghan for herself, but one of my nieces saw it in progress and begged her for it, so... when Mom finished it, she gave it to her. I realized then that while I had made afghans for my sisters, I had never made one for Mom so... I made one for her, just the right size to snuggle under while watching TV.

Then the Flaky Sister said, "It must have turned out crooked or wonky or something if you're giving it to Mom. Are the sides straight?"

I blinked at her for a moment, then said, "If it had been wonky or crooked, I would have kept it for myself. It's square. If you doubt me, go lay it out."

Of course, she laid it out! *snorts with laughter and rolls eyes* And yes, it was square and the edges were straight, just like they're supposed to be, and yes, that did put her nose out of joint!

Just to even things out, after dinner, I was curled comfortably in a corner of the couch, knitting and chatting with Mom and the Blonde Sister. When Flaky came into the living room to plop down on a nearby chair, the Blonde Sister made a point of picking up the scarf I'm working on and saying loudly, "Wow, look how straight and even this is! And you're just learning how to do this? I'm impressed!"

The Blonde Sister... I just love her so much sometimes!!

Seriously, though, the holidays do serve to remind me why we moved. Or rather, why the Husbandly One decided to take a job transfer that took us three hours away from Houston. Not just to improve my physical health, but to save my sanity, as [profile] vicki_sine pointed out on a recent visit. I love my family, don't get me wrong. But they drive me nuts. I can only handle them in small doses. Very small doses!

In other news, my writing is going slowly. After the Mac Melt-Down, I've had a bit of trouble getting back into the groove. Though I am trying to recreate some of the things I was working on earlier from memory, it's slow going, and you know, I'm the type of writer who works on several projects at once, mainly to keep myself interested and to help keep ideas flowing. Once I finish getting my backup set up, I suspect it will get a little easier, and I will be able to finish a few things.

*sigh*

The iMac, though, is still having issues. Namely with the fan. It keeps suddenly spiking and cycling high, and then slowing down, then suddenly spiking up high again. Like, right now, it's ticking along at 1205 rpm, but it will suddenly flare up to nearly 2000, then slow down again. And we have no idea why. Anybody else with an iMac having this issue? Just wondering...

Well, I must get about to my rat-killin', as my dad used to say when winding up a conversation. The dishes don't wash themselves, more's the pity, and towels must be washed as well. Anybody want to come do my laundry for me? Anybody?
auntbijou: (Angry Chibi Auntie!!)
Writing for the last four months has been... difficult. I don't know what it is, but every time I sit down to write... something happens.

It'll be difficult to start, it goes in fits and stops, and then finally, blissfully, I settle into the writing groove, I'll be going great guns and...

"Mom, Mom, wait, you have to hear this! So, I was in my choir class, and this guy came in... no wait, it wasn't a guy, it was... no... wait... forget it, I forgot. So... whatcha doin'? Is it okay if I hang here a while? I'm bored. Oh, and I'm hungry, too... can you make me some ramen? Or, no... wait... popcorn. Can you make popcorn, Mom? I'm not hungry so much as I just feel like nibbling... you know, popcorn. And hey, can we watch a movie? You haven't watched a movie with us in...."

Then she wonders why I'm banging my head against the desk.

So, I find another opportunity to write, sit down, have trouble starting, then hit the groove, the keyboard is practically smoking, it's going so well, I'm flying and completely lost in the story and...

"Hey, honey, we need to talk about whether we're going to send the kids to soccer camp. I've been looking at the budget and I think we can manage if we do this camp, as opposed to the Outrageously Expensive Soccer Camp of Doom. But we'll need to cut out this, that and the other from the budget, if you'll let me get on the computer so I can bring up the... honey... why are you grinding your teeth?"

Literally. It never ends. It's like a vast conspiracy to Keep Auntie Away from the Computer, and it's driving me completely insane. I have several writing assignments that I am supposed to be working on, and one of them is nearly completed if... I... can... just have a friggin' hour alone!!! And the other, I am barely halfway through.

I have to tell you, there are times when I get so frustrated, I want to throw up my hands and say, "Fine. I give up. No more writing. I get the damn hint, okay? Just forget the writing and give up on it because there's just no point. No point at all!!"

Then I remember why I write in the first place. Because it hurts not to. Because I can't stop. Because I have all these ideas, and pictures, and voices in my head, and they all need to come out, and the only way to do it is to write it all down.

But... I CAN'T DO IT IF I DON'T GET AT LEAST A COUPLE OF HOURS TO MYSELF!!!

*is very frustrated*

Right now, though, the temptation to throw in the towel and just give it all up is very, very strong.
auntbijou: (Calcifer)
Ever been working on something for months, writing, researching, struggling with it because, dammit, you just know you can make it work, but every attempt seems to just be... wrong. It's stiff, unnatural, refuses to flow no matter how you try to rewrite it, no matter how many different angles you try to approach it from, and your deadline is looming closer and closer, and you start getting desperate, because you don't want to ask for an extension, you know you can do this but... AARRRGGHHH!!!

Then life seems to throw all these obstacles and blocks your way, keeping you from working on it, until finally, it slams into you with all the force of a speeding train... you're writing about the wrong characters. It's not a story about this person... it's a story about those two people. And suddenly, everything flows the way it is supposed to, your fingers are flying across the keyboard, it's so easy to write now, whereas before, it was like trying to slog through mud uphill in a torrential downpour with a 150 pound pack on your back.

Serious, that drives me nuts. And it drives the people around me nuts, too.

I hate being a writer.

But then, sometimes, it just comes so easy, words seem to flow from my fingertips, and I can literally see the story before my eyes, like my own little movie and I'm just taking notes, really. The characters speak to me, leaning over my shoulder and whispering suggestions as I write, making me laugh at highly inappropriate moments when I suddenly realize why a certain thing needs to happen in the process of a story, or almost making me cry when I realize someone has to die and why. Sometimes, I feel like I am just a medium through which the story comes, the conduit that brings it to life on paper, because it can't stay in my head or it hurts, like they're drumming against the inside of my skull, trying to escape, and I can only relieve that pain by writing them out of me, and it feels so good, so good when it all works, when it comes together and it works and I know it works, there it is, see?

I love being a writer.

And this is why the Muggles think writers are crazy. And maybe we are. But who cares, as long as it makes a good story?

Nano-Complain-O

Sunday, November 16th, 2008 11:39 pm
auntbijou: (Default)
Okay, so... I wanted my main character to take an impulsive trip to Europe, but... he's refusing to go. Instead, he stormed out of his apartment and went to Book People, which is a totally cool, and bookworm friendly bookstore in Central Austin.

Leaving his best friend to pout and worry in her apartment.

While the tall, dark stranger that keeps appearing and unsettling him is having trouble figuring out just how he's going to acquire him.

DAMN this story!! It's driving me NUTS!!

Can I start all over now, please? You know, just... throw my hands up and write another story? Really, I could do it, catch up... sure!! I can write 20, 000 words by Wednesday, no problem! And y'all really believe me, too, right? Yeah, didn't think so... *sigh*

*whine whine whine*

Can y'all tell this is frustrating the hell out of me?

AAAAAAAAUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

The Nano Report

Friday, November 14th, 2008 09:50 am
auntbijou: (Default)
I am way behind on my NaNoWriMo novel. Of course, I suppose it is understandable that I haven't been able to work on it since last week, but now I am ready to get back to it... and... well...

*grumbles*

It's not that I don't want to write it. I could have chosen to write a fan-fic novel, but I thought, darn it, if I'm going to put this much effort into it, I might as well write something that I can shop around for publishing, right?

Problem is, I find myself wanting to work on the novel I started for last year's Nano. How inconvenient is that?

And this one is going in directions I didn't plan. Seriously, I actually wrote an outline for this one and... at this point, I'm not even close. It's heading in directions I never planned, and the sad thing is, it's based on a drabble I wrote some time ago, and... it's already departed from the drabble. I think I'd better let the drabble go. It's not even close to the same story, not at all.

*sigh*

It's always frustrating when I'm writing something that takes on a life of its own, and I sit there yelling at it, "Hey, wait a minute, I didn't want you to do that!! You're supposed to do this instead!!"

Not to mention, I still need to finish my Harry Holidays fic and send it off for beta (and Brit-picking), as well as typing up the minutes from the last soccer board meeting and sending off emails to all the members to let them know we have a meeting this weekend.

Oh, please, don't let me forget to pick up the keys for the meeting room today!!

Can y'all just picture me with post-it note reminders stuck all over my forehead? Which, really, is a silly place to put them since I can't read them on my forehead!

Refresh my memory... why am I a writer?
auntbijou: (Default)
Okay, so you're sitting there, and you get one of those brainstorms, and start typing furiously, you're writing, you're in the groove, in the moment, you can just see the scene unfolding as you write it, the keyboard is practically smoking because you're typing so fast, trying to capture it all before it fades. And it's good. It's really good. I mean, walk around the room, jumping up and down, pumping your fist and going, "YEAH!!" good. Yeah, like that.

And when you're done, you read it over, and you're like, "Holy Mackinoly, I wrote this? Because, seriously, this is good, really, really good!"

Because it is. It's fantastic. It does everything it's supposed to do, it tugs at the emotional heartstrings in just the right way, even makes you cry when you read it over a second time, and you realize this snippit is probably the Best Thing You've Ever Written. Ever.

And then you realize... you can't use it, because it has no relation whatsoever to anything else you're working on.

*sigh*

Stunned...

Friday, September 7th, 2007 10:31 pm
auntbijou: (Default)
Wow.  Madeleine L'Engle died today.  She was 88.  Talk about another piece of my childhood gone!  I think  A Wrinkle In Time  was the first science fiction book I'd ever read.  Well, actually, it was either that or Stowaway to the Moon.  Still, that's rather stunning to me.

Of course, I didn't find out Marion Zimmer Bradley had died until two years AFTER she died!  I was sitting there wondering, "So, is her next book going to be another Avalon book?  Or a Darkover book?  And will I want to read either one?"  And being curious, I decided to Google her, and... whoa, no more Darkover, no more Avalon.  Well, not by HER anyway.  

*sigh*

Guess I'll go rifle through my bookshelves and see if I can find "Wrinkle" and read it.  And sniffle a little.

Yeah, I know, I'm a sap.  But y'all knew that already.

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